Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Good bye 2008!

That's right peeps, it's time for 2009. Hey that rhymes. Ok enough dorkiness.

Just a few more days left of vacation. I haven't even started on AP Bio syllabus. Such a slacker I am. No worries, I will do it tomorrow.

I got my windows tinted yesterday. Now I don't feel so naked driving around. I can pick my nose in peace!

I am very much looking forward to a new year. I am 18 weeks tomorrow and according to one web page that means 5 months. Holy crap.

I will post new belly pics tomorrow after my dinner from outback digests!

Friday, December 26, 2008

It's so windy here!

Urgh, I just hate the wind. It was blowing here again today. At least it wasn't dusty.

Christmas eve dinner went well. It was a little cornfusing there for a while trying to figure out who was coming, but both my mom and my dad came to dinner with DH's mom. I totally overcooked the ham, but the turkey was delicious. Then we bowled. My dad totally came out of his shell when we brought out the bowling.

Christmas we went to El Paso. It was ok. A little overwhelming.

Today mom and I went shopping. We were going to go to El Paso to the super Target but we changed our minds. So we shopped here. I got another pair of adjustable waist pants and mom bought me a new shirt. All in all it was a good day. Next week I am getting my windows tinted and started to work on AP Bio.

I am just dying to feel this twinkie move. I know i probably have at least 4 more weeks before that but gosh, can't it just hurry up!

I have another appointment on the 5th for weigh and measure. I figure after that we will sent up the appointment so we can find out what twinkie is.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

SINTC

So I rented Sex in the City movie from Netflix. It's so stupid. I am amazed. The series was decent, as far as I can remember, but the movie is awful. Just to top it off, they get Charlotte pregnant and them dare to say something like "Once we stop trying..." WTF?

Anyways, I am not going to go off on that tangent. It's just too much.

Tomorrow my mom is coming to visit. I had planned to go to Alb. but plans change. I think we are going to have fun. I am going to make a small dinner and it should be tasty. I am most excited about the asparagus. I love asparagus!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Let the vacation begin!



That's right folks, two weeks of sleeping and eating and not working. Gotta love it!

I have just a few more things to get for Christmas. I just hope I can remember what they are! I seem to be having a problem where my brain doesn't work. I can't remember much of anything. It totally sucks.

I had a rough week at work this past week. I am glad that is over and everyone has some time to go back to their corners and chill out. I am amazed however at how lazy some people are. They seem to think that they should be allowed to just be in their classrooms doing their own little thing without worrying about what is going on in the rest of the building. It just doesn't work like that anymore.

Without further gibber gabber, for your entertainment, 16 weeks, 2 days belly shots. This is after yet another giant meal. I think I need to start taking these in the morning. Someone asked me why faces never show up in the belly shot so I tried to get my face into a shot. The look on my face is retarded but oh well.

I forgot to mention how fabulous my skin is looking these days. Just when I conquer one giant zit, three more pop up. They seem to be most happy on my forehead and right cheek. It's just great. Oh and a shout out to adjustable waist pants. Couldn't do it without ya!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Holy smoked salmon batman


Seriously, this belly is outta control! I just keep thinking that I am WAY too big for how far along I am. I think, crap I have a long ways to go so if I am big today, just imagine! Urgh. I am definitely a little self conscious about it. Now don't take that like I am not happy. I am thrilled. I just don't want to be blowing anything out of proportion. I know that a large part of the belly is just chub, cuz I had some chub but I can't even suck it in! It doesn't help that I ate a HUGE lunch yesterday. But it was so good.

The one downside to this pregnancy is the headaches. I get them about 12 pm everyday and they are just killer. I went a few weeks without one, but everyday this week I have had one. And that one Tylenol I am allowed to take just don't cut it. I need morphine I think!


So the picture is 15 weeks. Crazy to think we have just 25 weeks to go. We are almost halfway!

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

MIscellaneous

Well, it's almost time for break. I am dying for vacation to start. Not that I hate work, but I just am looking forward to sleeping in and being warm at home. My classroom is so cold I just can't stand it. I have a space heater under my desk that keeps me warm all day long. But then I don't want to get up because I am so toasty!

The weather here is atrocious. It actually snowed in the mountains and it sleeted down at school. On days like that I just want to stay home in bed! But I bundled up in my hoodie! and went to work. I think perhaps I might want to invest in a real jacket!

Friday, December 05, 2008

Heart beat

Got to hear it today at the docs. It was normal, 150-155. It is just so great to hear it every time. I recorded it on my phone and I tried post it but I can't figure it out! Such a pain.

We go again on January 5th, but it won't be a ultrasound so we won't be finding out what we are having then. Bummer.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Updates


That's right loyal reader(s). Here's the most recent belly shot. This is 13 weeks 4 days. Holy crap where did that belly come from? I ate the whole turkey!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Robin says she likes it


She must be smoking crack! Here's a pic of the dreaded hair after it has dried and shrank. I feel like I am fifteen except I have a nice silver streak going. Should be fun at work tomorrow!

Friday, November 28, 2008

I need a real hair dresser



It probably seems strange to some people, but I have been going to Smart Style inside of Walmart for 8 years. Its convenient, and most of the time the hair cut is decent. Since my hair is curly, I don't really get too caught up in it being even. But my favorite lady left to start her own business. I should have just stuck with her, but I can never seem to make an appointment or think ahead. That's why Smart Style is so easy.

So I go there tonight to get my hair cut and I am thinking of going pretty short. My first clue that i was in for a bad hair cut should have been when she tried to comb through my hair dry. Hello! Curly hair needs to be cut wet. Ok so I tell her she needs to wash it. We go to the sink and she is killing me in the washing. Pulling tugging, just so painful. We make it through that and go back. I tell her that I want 2 inches off. My hair was layered and I ASSUMED (Stupid me) that since it was already layered, she would keep the layers in the trim. I didn't say anything about NOT wanting layers. Ok so she cuts my hair but cuts it all the same length. I ask her, umm, can I get my layers back? She goes Oh you want layers? Duh bitch!

She starts layering in the back and I am a bit shocked at how layered she is doing it but I figure hey, change is ok. She spins me around to do the front so I can't see. When she spins me back around I am SHOCKED. It's SHORT! And it's longer in the back. It's dried by this point so it looks like a cotton ball. I ask her to please put some mousse in it, I still have to go shop in the store. So she does, and I am just freaking out at how bad it looks. It's HORRIBLE. I make it through the store, but when I get in the car I just lose it. I keep thinking "How am I going to go to work with this awful hair?" Luckily it's just long enough to pull pack in a pony tail. SO I get home, cry on David's shoulder, take and shower and style it the way I usually do. It is now a little better but still crazy short. I still think mullet cuz of the length in the back. But I think I can at least live with it. I would drink however, if I wasn't knocked up!

On a happier note, my friend Shauna from Phoenix came to visit today. We had such a great time. We went and ate Thai food. That was delicious, and we just hung out for awhile. I forgot how much fun it is to hang with her. I wish she lived closer.

I forgot to add, I am really disgusted with the way people get caught up in shopping for Christmas deals. It's bad enough that people camp out in front of stores to get a cheap TV, but today a crowd rushed a walmart and killed a worker. They just flat out trampled him. Is it worth it for that $400 flat screen? I don't think so. It's just so sad. I'm not even religious and I see that we have lost sight of the meaning of the holiday. People should be more thankful for the family they have in their lives. I know that sounds so corny, but I am tired of getting stressed out trying to buy "good enough" gifts. Any gift is good but Lush is better! Bad Alexis.

Monday, November 24, 2008

I know what she means!

I love to read dooce for many reasons. She is freaking hilarious, especially the blog about taking Coco to herd sheep, but also for my Daily Chuck. She just announced her pregnancy (EDD June 14th, wonderful day!) and her post today is about how food is just so good. I can totally understand that. At first I couldn't get enough spaghetti sauce, it was the most delicious thing ever. Now I have moved on to OJ. It's the only thing that gets me out of bed some mornings. It's almost orgasmic!

I ran into an old friend this weekend and was so happy to spread my happy news, imagine my surprise when she annouced she was expecting twins. I felt this momentary sadness. I have to say that while I am very content with one child, actually relieved, I still feel sadness over the loss of the other twin, and over the loss of that special status, I guess. I think that having twins would be too much for me to handle, but at the same time, it would have been really awesome, especially if it was one boy and one girl. But that is past and can't be changed. But I didn't tell her what happened because I didn't want to inject pity and sadness into our conversation.

I am 13 weeks this Thursday. Yeah for second trimester.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

12w2d = scary


This is a belly shot from today. I hadn't eaten TOO much by this time but still some. I blame the hummus.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I am done!

With PIO shots. No more nightly shots in the butt that leave knots that take weeks to dissipate. No more dreading every night at 9 that I have to be STABBED in the ass! I am so excited I can barely stand it!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

11 weeks


Here we are! It's the 11 week belly shot. Looking so fabulous in green!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Not much to report

Things are just going along. I took a belly shot but it's still on my phone. I have to email it. I find the belly shot this week a little scary. I think maybe it was just too much food. It just seems to have grown exponentially. I know that will happen but it just seems way too soon.

I am still behind in my grad school. I am hoping to get the last chem assignment done tomorrow. Then I can focus on writing my paper. It's not due until Friday so I have some time. Well, it's totally time for bed.

Monday, November 10, 2008

If I were stuck on a deserted island, I would die!

Because I have the worst time making a freaking fire!

So it's a cold windy day here and I decide I would like a fire. David isn't home yet so it's totally up to me. So I clean out the fire place of ashes and put wood in there. I recycled the newspaper earlier today so I used old cell phone and electric bills. So I put lots of paper in there and light it up. Lots of smoke, no fire. I try this a few more times, I have to open the door and turn on the fan so I don't suffocate. No go.

So I go outside to search for an axe so I can chop some small pieces. I find an old axe with a loose head in the shed. I try to chop a piece and drop it on my foot. Fabulous. I choose a smaller piece and manage to get it into two smaller pieces. YAY! I take my two pieces of kindling back into the house and try again. I do manage to get those two pieces started and I decide to peel my pomegranate. So I go in the kitchen and get it peeled and put into a bowl for snacking. I put the bowl on the toaster so I can clean the counter, but the bowl falls and spills seeds into the space between the fridge and the counter. SHIT! So I pick up some of them, and drag out the vacuum to get the seeds. Ok, now the fires out. CRAP! So I put another piece of wood on there and MORE paper. Finally I get a true fire. So now I am enjoying a nice fire, some pom seeds with my gassy dogs.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

It waves!



We had another ultrasound today and we got to see the twinkie. You can now make out a head and we saw a little arm waving. I am happy to report that it was an abdominal ultrasound. I hope never to see the dildo-cam again! We got to hear the heart beat and I have to say that is the most amazing sound ever! I cry every time. That's like the vaildation sound.

I am posting the new pics, it is starting to look less like an alien so that's a good thing.

Now even though I am thrilled beyond belief that the twinkie is doing good, I have to say that I hate my chemistry class. Mostly because I have no idea what is going on. I try to keep up but it is so far over my head it isn't even funny.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Finally

Election day is here. I can't wait to see what happens. I know that I will not be able to stay up late though so I will just have to wait until tomorrow.

I got called for a drug test today. I freaked out because I was totally behind in what I needed to do. I called and told her that I just couldn't make it, that if I lost my district license then so be it. She is letting me go in the morning. It's good because I get to sleep in but it's bad because I have to go to ST in the morning, got back to Chapa, then in the evening go back to ST for a 5 pm meeting. Then I get to go home. I think its about 175 miles tomorrow. Blarh!

I am very excited to have the ultrasound on Thursday. I want to see the twinkie again!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Belly Picture


Here's a picture. I realize that most of this belly is ovaries and the monster bowl of spaghetti I had, but here's the belly at 9 weeks.

Some are are stupid and some are just ignorant

We have some ladies that work at our school that I just love to death. But they say the stupidest things. For example:
1. If you eat too many tomatoes you will end up with appendicitis
2. Our grape sized fetus can hear what I say
3. Going out with wet hair will give you pneumonia

Now I now sooner or later the baby will be able to hear me. But at 9 weeks, this is not happening. For goodness sake the brain hasn't even fully developed yet! It doesn't even have ears!

On a funny note, more kids are finding out. One kid in particular I told yesterday and he was so excited. Then he decided that he wanted to be my midwife. He's currently in EMT training and wants to be a doctor. I told him that this was not an option, but he is persistent. NOT GONNA HAPPEN. So today he was talking about how excited his is, that he wanted to give me a hug. They are so funny.

So I don't think you should run out and join the skinny jeans fab. I have seen some girls that I want to tell them, "Do you realize that those jeans make your ass look about the size of Texas?" Stacey would be appalled and Clinton would cry.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Like a broken record

I've said it before, and I apparently will say it numerous times. I AM FREAKING TIRED!!!! Holy cow. I just don't even know what to say other than that. Around 1:30 pm I am a walking zombie. Geez, I think I need to take a nap instead of eating lunch except that around lunch time I am starving. Oh wait, I am starving all the time!

I am excited to see the twinkie again next week. I think it will look more human and less alien! Or at least I hope so. One of the teachers at school lent me a doppler and I can't wait until we can hear the heart beat with it. I want to try now but I know it's not going to work. I think I will try anyway.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Hmmm


It's hard to think of a title when you are writing about how one of your babies died. But to be honest, I am sad but not heart broken. The way my RE made it sound, with the fibroid, it would have been a hard pregnancy and we would not have made it to our due date. So now we just have one twinkie and I think that is for the best. This means we should be able to make it the full 40 weeks, I can try for the birth I want, and the bonus is, because we started out as twins, we should get more scans than normal so we will get to see our Twinkie grow. I know that sounds harsh, but it's reality. I was really not looking forward to having a Csection. So here's the latest pictures. I cropped the second one so that you get a clear view of Twinkie but the first one shows the empty sac of twin a. Twinkie kinda looks like a alien!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Too much food

I made dinner tonight and we ate way too much. I made roasted chicken, roasted veggies, rice pilaf and a salad. I was doing great, then about halfway through my meal I took a bite and thought I was going to hurl. So that ended dinner. It was tasty though.

I went ahead and took Thursday off. Even though I think I have accepted whatever is going to happen, I don't think I necessarily have to go torture myself at work. Plus with the construction, I probably wouldn't make it back in time. It puts a kink in my plans for the week but I can work around that.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Shitfire

Well, I went to the doctor today to get all the insurance paperwork in order. I found out that the midwife I wanted doesn't manage twins so I might have to find someone else. They decided to do an ultrasound to identify fetal heart rates. Twin B had a great heart rate and looked great. Twin A however had a really low heart rate. The ultrasound lady was very concerned. I don't think personally that twin A has a good chance. I am scheduled to go back next Thursday. I really hope that twin B can hang on.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

You've got to be kidding me!

I needed an oil change and a tire rotation and I decided that today was the day. So I go to Jiffy Lube, but they don't carry my filter. I should preface this with I have always gone to the dealer even though it is not convenient mainly so they could deal with the warranty crap. So I head on down to the dealer.

Tony is my service manager and I have always gotten along with him. He gets the car taken back but he has to leave for a parent teacher conference. No biggie. So after a little over an hour they tell me the car is done. I go to pay and they want $110. What???? The lady can't tell me why so they call in the other service guy. I don't think this guy has been there long because he can't tell why either. He goes off to fix it. 30 minutes later he comes back and the bill is now $95. Still unacceptable. He doesn't know what is going on. They have charged me $52 for the oil change. Usually oil changes are $34. Finally, after 15 more minutes he gets it worked out to a more reasonable $62. That they charge $24 to rotate tires is criminal, but what are you going to do. I blame this all on Tony. He is not allowed to leave anymore when I am there.

Twins


It's hard to tell what you are looking at but here's the ultrasound of the twins. Twinkie A is on the right, twinkie B is on the left. Click to see it bigger.

Monday, October 13, 2008

I was going to wait....

Until I scanned the pics and posted them, but I am being very lazy and I didn't scan crap tonight. So it's official, we are expecting twins! Freak out. The dr. said we shouldn't tell anyone in case we had one twin "vanish" but we couldn't keep it in. I have a good feeling that everything is going to go well, mainly because things have worked out so far.

One of the main things that is driving me crazy is the need to pee every 30 minutes. It's very irritating. But I will continue to drink up in hopes it will help with digestion.

I am very excited but nervous. I think we will have another ultrasound in two weeks. I can't wait!

Lilypie Expecting a baby Ticker

Monday, October 06, 2008

The anxiety is starting to get to me

I am trying so hard to be calm but it's so impossible these days. I just can't wait for the ultrasound Saturday. I am pretty much convinced it's twins but i hope I am not disappointed if it isn't. I am also a little freaked that it might be nothing, but I am trying really hard to keep that thought out of my head. Tomorrow I am 6 weeks so that is one day further than last time. That has to be a good omen!

The PIO shots are getting better. We have developed skills for them I guess. I still have little lumps but ntohing like what I had the first weeks when I couldn't even sit down! I do have a nasty bruise right in the middle of one but cheek but whatcha gonna do?

I am pooped so off to bed with me!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Gummi letters are delicious

I know they aren't good for me but gosh they are delicious. Of course I eat too many and then I want to hurl. So I have to make sure that I only eat like four at a time.

Gatorade tastes good too but then I want to hurl and frequently upchuck a little. Nothing major.

I am having anxiety about the ultrasound. I know it's the same thing everyone thinks but still, I need some reassurance.

I am thinking about going to see my mom for vacation. DH thinks this is a bad idea because he doesn't want me to drive all that way. Then I told my mom she would have to give me the shots in the ass and now she's freaking. That may mean she is coming down here.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Slackers unite

Well, I have already fallen off the update wagon!

We had a positive beta Tuesday at 124 and a repeat on Thursday of 304 (or somewhere around there). So that looks good.

I am trying hard to be excited and sometimes I am but I am very nervous. I know it's better that I am a happy camper in my happy place but it's sometimes hard. David thinks I am having symptoms to soon. I am exhausted by mid afternoon and require a nap. I don't want any chocolate or even most of my decaf latte. I didn't want the sweet potato at Outback last night even though I usually devour those things. Who knows, maybe it's all in my head, but food aversions was the first hint I had that it might have work. Those food aversions made me go by a HPT and pee on it!

I can't wear my normal clothes because the OHSS has me bloated and I can't take nay pressure on my belly. Luckily I still have some of my clothes from when I was larger. These are coming in handy. The heparin shots are bruising my belly like crazy but i have my last one Monday morning. Can't wait for those to end. The nurse at the office told me I had 8 more weeks of PIO shots. Those I hate but last night's wasn't so bad so maybe there's hope.

I watched supernatural Thursday and it's gone all biblical one me. Don't know if this is gonna be the new theme or what. I hope not, I much rather enjoyed the old show.

That's all for now I guess.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Continuing no theme

So I am trying to keep up with this blog, my BF blog and my myspace blog. I don't think that will keep up. We went to UNO's today for dinner. I ordered fried stuff which is weird because I typically don't do fried. But it was alright. I have been starving today. But I refuse to read into it. I would love to write more but it turns out that I am pooped and I want to go to bed.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Pics

I don't know why myspace has to be such a pain, but here are the pics. The first picture shows the 8 embryos that made it to blast. The second is the two inside my uterus. They are hard to see so I outlined them in yellow.



Monday, September 15, 2008

Wow....

It's been a REALLY long time since I posted here. I have been posting in my myspace blog, but my mom doesn't have a myspace so she can't read it. I am going to try to post here more often so she can keep up if she wants to.

So, a quick recap. We ended up doing 4 IUI's with no success. Every time David's sperm count was excellent, and I always had three huge follicles, but no BFP. We finally decided to do IVF in May, but with my summer school, we postponed it until August. Now that I know exactly what happens, I totally could have fit it in but I think this is for the best. If this works, and it will, I will be due the beginning of June. Perfect.

So we started the drugs on August 30th. Everything went really well. I actually managed to lose weight but not my mind. I never got overly emotional, but I was a bit clingy. Not to bad.

We had retrieval on September 9th. They retrieved 15 eggs. 8 were mature and 8 fertilized. Actually and 8 made it blast stage. The embryologist said that usually only 50% make it so we beat the odds there! They were all perfect so I don't know how she picked to most perfect ones but we transfered two yesterday. I have pretty much been in bad since then. I have such high hopes for this cycle. I know it sounds silly, but if everything has gone so well so far, it has to end well!

Oh the only thing that has sucked is the PIO shots. But I read a blog on them and if I heat up my butt before, lay ont he bed with my feet hanging off, then it's SO MUCH BETTER! I even managed to get rid of the lump from Friday!

My ovaries are a bit too big though so I am on baby aspirin and heparin for a few days. Beta is September 23rd, right around the corner... I am so excited!!!!!